I haven't had the opportunity to write for awhile, and probably should just go to bed now, but I needed to get some thoughts down about my family.
First of all, I have seen a significant improvement in my life as a parent since I left the
social media world. For one it is so much easier to communicate with others around me and make and build lasting friendships with my ward family. Also, I have continued to receive revelation for my for myself and family since I followed that first bit of revelation my Heavenly Father sent me. I have had decreasing "freak outs" during the day. I love my children more. I hug and kiss them more. I have been able to find time during the day for one on one time with each of them. I have been able to make better meals for my family. I have been better able to show my love and enjoy the time I spend with them each day.
All of this has been so necessary and essential for me at this time, because James has taken

on a second job and has been away longer hours everyday. I relied on his help so much in the past that I often had anxiety when he would leave in the mornings. I find that not to be the case. Even in catastrophic moments that in the past would have set me over the edge, I am able to stay calm and let the madness take its course around me with out adding to it. For example. The other day, in the middle of cooking dinner I heard a noise in the toy room. In the amount of time it took me to walk from the kitchen to the toy room, Molly fell on her face, causing a nose bleed that bled everywhere. While trying to calm an uncalmable child, Lucy was in the kitchen pushing Louis all over in his chair running as fast as she could. Luckily that did not result in a disaster, but it could have been bad had he not been strapped in. I got Molly to calm down, leaving a bloody mess in the bathroom and resumed cooking dinner until it was done. It was such a good moment for me.

There are many other moments during the day that I look back and think of how my previous self would have handled those situations. Instead of several bad days in a row, I have had several good days in a row and that's a success for me.
This is either an intervention for little rapunzel or they are all attending an AA meeting.