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| There aren't words to describe my love... |
It is so nice to be back in a good solid routine again. It has been a really long time since our family's life has been consistent enough for a good routine. Sure there is a bed time and nap time, and meals that have never been missed, but it has been disorderly only because we have had two parents in the home for over 2 months. I'm not complaining... at all. We couldn't have planned the timing better for having Louis, had we actually planned it.... which we didn't. James finished his field work right when Louis was born and so a natural 2 and a half month break between finishing school, taking board exams, and finding a job was set in place just at that time. It has been fantastic, and made the transition to stay at home mom of 3 so much more pleasant and easier. Thank you James. But now it's back to work, or rather start to work. James got his first job at my old "first real job" Kids on the Move. And I am so excited for him. I already know its a great place to work and great people he will be working with, so I couldn't be more pleased. He is on day three and is overwhelmed with orientation and getting to know the in's and out's of early intervention but like everything else he has ever done, he will succeed.
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| First day of work. |
I have so much in my head right now that some of my thoughts might be scattered but I need to get them down somewhere or I will regret it. So to bring some order to my thoughts I will number them, in no particular order of importance, only just to separate them.
1. After being a stay at home mother of three for 3 days, I wonder how any woman manages to find any time to take care of themselves. I have not yet, but started today... that's another thought. I love my children and love the time I spend with them, but any free time I have seems to be spent tidying up or doing dishes so the time that they are awake I can focus on them. Essentially bringing order after they bring chaos. I promise I don't spend loads of time cleaning or picking up but to have the dishes done each night and start the day with a clean kitchen is the difference between a good/fine day and a great day.
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| She thinks she is a big girl because she can do this by herself. |
2. I have had 3 babies in four and a half years... and they are all still alive. I would say that is an accomplishment. It has taken its toll on my body however. With less than a year between birth and pregnancies and a gallbladder problem/removal in between, I have had no time at all to fully recover from each one. I have seen all the posts and blogs of women that are back to the gym the day after the baby is delivered but I am not those women. I tend to loose weight right after the baby is born and then gain a significant amount back within a couple of months after the baby is born. I am currently walking around with 3 babies worth of post baby weight. That is the honest truth, but it has taken its toll long enough. I love my kids but I refuse to use them as an excuse any longer. They are my motivation.
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| My motivation. |
3. I hate dieting. And God likes to teach me patience. So I will not diet, instead I will continue to make the recipes that my family will eat, always incorporating fruits and veggies and good grains, and not add or take away anything (except refined sugar, but again that's another thought). I will eat less of it and snack less and exercise more. I want my kids to be active so I have to give them a good example. I also want my kids to have a healthy relationship with food, so that means I have to as well. I want my kids to love and appreciate their bodies, so I will as well. They have never and will never hear me say the words, "I am fat" or anything like that. I want them to know more about inner beauty than outer beauty and judge people on the previous.
4. I saw a post once about this lady who did a 100 day challenge. She worked out at the gym for 100 days in a row. She did not shed pounds quickly but you could see her stamina building and even choices in her regular life were affected for the better. I believe in establishing good habits. So I have decided to take on her challenge. Starting today! Because like my dad always said, "Starting is half the battle." and it has been my battle. I always say I will start tomorrow. But tomorrow came and left, but today I made a difference. SO here are my 3 healthy habits that I am challenging myself to do for 100 days:
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| He loves his hands. |
A: Read the Book of Mormon everyday for 100 days.
B: Eat less refined sugar (perhaps one day, none) for 100 days.
C: Work out or do some thing active everyday for 100 days.
At the gym tonight I thought a lot about how I wanted to be accountable for this. Social media has allowed us to seek support from family, friends, and even strangers who are not close to us, but I wonder if for me this would be to a fault. Depending on this kind of support can distract me from the support that I have present with me everyday. Namely, my husband, my children, my ward members that I need to get to know and meet and most importantly my Heavenly Father. Through His son, Jesus Christ, I can kneel down and pray to him and let Him know how it is going. I can be accountable to him. It is He that gave me this body and it is He that commands me to take care of it as a sacred vessel. So I will.
5. The reason for cutting out refined sugar is that I have a shoulder problem. I have been through countless rounds of physical therapy and nothing seems to help it, except warm weather and cutting out sugar from my diet. I live in the cold now, so the only other option is cutting down on the sugar. It is hard, because I like sugar. I like it in all forms, but because I love my body and want it to last, I will not eat refined sugar. Never? No. But I will not keep it in my home and I will allow myself to indulge only on special occasions.
6. I love being a mother of three beautiful children. It is hard, and most days I spend the day in dirty hair and gym clothes or pj's but I don't get to miss out on smiles or hugs and that is important to me. I write this because it has been hard, and in moments of weakness, I have regrets... but they are quickly turned around.
7. I will add one more goal to my list
D: 100 days of keeping a personal history.
I have started reading the Book of Mormon again. At the beginning of this book I am always reminded of the importance of record keeping. That is why we have this sacred text, because some very important men a long time ago obeyed the Lord and kept records, personal histories of their families and people. I have gained so much knowledge, wisdom and comfort reading them, and know that my own personal history is just as important. It may not be scripture, but it will be a lasting legacy that can testify to someone that I was here for one and two testify of the roll my Heavenly Father and His son play in my life everyday.
It is late and so I should instill a 5th 100 day challenge of going to bed, but with a newborn, it is out of my control.
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| Day ONE! Here I go! |